June 18, 2008
I’m A Survivor !
For those who haven’t been here before.. please know that i am going for a major operation next week. I’m having a hysterectomy and having my fibroids taken out. My fibroids are huge .. and it is making me look like i am 24 weeks pregnant. There is currently some complication with it.. because my hemoglobin is extremely low.. and i’m diabetic. So the risk of me taking the operation is even higher.
Why i didn’t go for the operation earlier..?? I hung on for the longest time.. because my daughter.. Chloe needed alot of attention. With a business to run.. and a child to take care of.. i can’t possibly .. take time off.. and leave everything to PB (the spouse) .. to take care of everything.
Now that Chloe is alot older.. and isn’t an infant no more.. i feel it is time to do it. Of course .. there is still fear.. that i might not come out alive. I am not afraid to die.. but i’m afraid to leave the ones i love behind. Chloe is still very young.. even though she ain’t no infant.. but for PB to raise her on his own.. should something happen .. i don’t dare to think of it.
But i’m a survivor.. !! i am gonna go into the operation with the right frame of mind.. but not without doing everything i can .. in case something does happen. Like making sure that all my finances is taken care of.. and a new will drawn up..and signed by a public notary. I wanna sit down and write a letter to chloe.. just in case.. but i’m too emotional about it.
My surgery is scheduled for Monday. Today .. i’m going in for another blood test and am fasting right now .. and EKG .. and some other visit to the pre-op nurse on Friday. I’ll update as I go. Stay tuned.
Mama Bok, I will keep you in my prayers. Good luck and God Bless!
Comment by Dawn — June 18, 2008 @ 11:41 am
Mama Bok, I am confident that you will be fine. Have faith and hope. And yes, you are a survivor. You must be, if not for yourself, for little Chloe and PB. Promise??
I will keep you in my prayers. Sending you lots of love and *BIG BIG HUGS*
Comment by JoMel — June 18, 2008 @ 1:18 pm
Positive thinking, J! You WILL be fine.
Comment by Vien — June 18, 2008 @ 3:53 pm
My dear sis Jan, U r going to come out safe and sound and u r going to be healthy and raise Chloe and see her graduate, married and babysit your grandkids
Have faith in HIM…HE LOVES YOU AND HE WILL PROTECT YOU!Keep praying…and as always..my prayers are with you all the time!
*****HUGS***** and Kisses!
what time is the surgery?
Comment by Gene — June 18, 2008 @ 6:25 pm
Hi Mama Bok, Wishing you all the best. You’ll be fine. Put all your trust on HIM. You will be in my thought and prayers.
Comment by Hilda — June 18, 2008 @ 11:54 pm
Mama Bok, you will be fine.
This hsd be done long a ago and congrats for doing it.
I understand your anxiety, will keep u in prayer.
Comment by Earthtone — June 19, 2008 @ 12:24 am
You will be alright Jan. Will keep you in my prayers. Now…DON’T BE SILLY!!!!
Comment by mommy to chumsy — June 19, 2008 @ 1:02 am
God bless, Mamabok! It was scary going for a D&C and this is so much more. Will keep you in prayer!
Comment by mrs b — June 19, 2008 @ 1:25 am
You will be fine, don’t worry too much. Many will be praying for you, me included. Big hugs!
Comment by Bkworm — June 19, 2008 @ 10:34 am
Jan, I am confident you will be fine too. I’ve just said a prayer for you. I’ve gone thru 3 c-sections and I am fine! All the best to you.
Comment by Shireen — June 19, 2008 @ 10:57 am
yes, I believe you are a strong survival, can you imagine coming to a unknown place years ago? Great risk great adventure, and look at you, you make it, you build such lovely family, great life.
Now it’s another chapter of life, it’s down to health, it’s important to get it done, with strong and determination person you are,your body will hear you. I am so sure you will be fine, you will be running soon. High Five!
Comment by May 五月媽媽 — June 19, 2008 @ 1:12 pm
my prayers are with you and here’s wishing you a smooth operation and speedy recovery. you can do it
Comment by Sweetpea — June 19, 2008 @ 9:59 pm
I’ve been praying for you every night. You will be fine. Chloe needs you. Fight the battle and be a survivor. All the best. *hugs*
Comment by eastcoastlife — June 20, 2008 @ 12:35 am
Will include you in my daily prayers Jan. Our good Lord will take care of you. Don’t worry, you just have to put your trust in Him.
Comment by Girlie — June 20, 2008 @ 12:11 pm
i wish you the best for your operation.
Comment by aida — June 20, 2008 @ 4:35 pm
Aduhh.. so sorry to hear all this. About the operation and that is definitely not nice. Leaving chloe is another problem too.. i mean till she can stand on her own. I understand that part. If we can postphone everything that is not nice and just continue doing things we like for our family.. we usually do that first right.
I just wish you’ll be fine and everything taken care of. I really do. all the best to u and family.
Comment by papajoneh — June 22, 2008 @ 12:12 am