We’ve always had a doctor situation here in our town. Doctors come and go.. when they sorta finished their contract here.. and they move to greener pasture. But how to blame them right..?? afterall, what is there here.. for them..??

A check with other clinics in town .. that we had put our name in for waiting list today.. didn’t looked good at all. Looks like other doctors were leaving too. Like i said.. i don’t blame them .. but did they really have to do it all at the same time..?? the 1000s of ppl here left without a family doctor!!! Darn these doctors.. and you think they are supposed to be serving the ppl for a greater cause. Oh well..!! so the emergency room again .. we have to go.. and with the H1N1 situation.. one donch even know what to think. I just hope that our next doctor don’t turned out to be insensitive and the secretary isn’t the same either - now that would sux big time. But in the meantime, i need to stay positive.. and look forward to a better doctor.

PS : PB has an appt with his family doctor in the next few days.. and i had asked him to go beg his family doctor to take Chloe in .. hahhaha!!! like go on his knees if he needs to.

People often wonder how we stand the cold here in Canada.. especially someone like myself, who comes from a place where it is sunny 365 days a year.. or rather .. we say .. we don’t have any season, it’s summer every day.. and every season. Well, we do get the rain.. and the storms.. but they don’t really last too long, it’s usually very humid and dry where i come from. The place i come from is an island but a city and a country, very modern but no place for a motorhome nor motorhome towing services. But everything is as high tech as it can get. Don’t believe me..?? just google - Singapore and you will know where i come from.

Although, we come from a very advanced country, our upbringing is very much backwards, because my forefathers and parents are very traditional people. The believed in a lot of superstitions and the 3rd kind.. if you know what i mean. And some of the things that may not sound logical to the “ang mohs” .. we kinda grew used to it.. and practiced it even without really, really believing in it. Better safe than sorry..??

Like the cold weather for example, my mom used to make us dressed really warm coz’ she said.. else you are gonna get sick. But truth be told, you and i know that one gets a cold from virus in the air. But having said that.. when one is cold as compared to the other warm person, the colder person is more susceptible to getting sick quicker as study had shown. Even though I myself know that not keeping warm isn’t the real reason .. for getting sick, i still used it on Chloe and tell her strictly, ” you wanna get sick is it..?? quickly put on your scarf and keep your neck warm!” so you see .. even though we said.. we would never be like our mom.. we are like mom.. muahhaha!!! but yes.. one don’t get a cold .. if you don’t keep warm.

PB had been using his old model phone for like 5 yrs now, the phone still works.. but the face plate, well, lets just say.. it doesn’t wanna come on when it should.. and the battery don’t last too, too long either. His old model was a Samsung .. but like any responsible adult.. one don’t just go out and buy stuff .. when you want to.. or feel a need for change. Well, unless of course you are rich lah.. muahahha!! which we are not… although some may think otherwise.. but really we are NOT..! Anyhow, he was looking to change his old model and was looking at the many cell phones they have at Rogers (local phone shop here).

And since we know the manager of the store.. and he recommended this new Nokia model .. and it really didn’t cost PB a lot of money .. just a contract of 3 yrs which is the norm here.. but we figured there is no harm.. because we’ve always had this # even before i came to Canada. So how do i feel about his new cellphone..?? it’s a cellphone .. muahahhaha!! these days.. beside my laptop.. the rest .. well, you can say .. i only use them when absolutely necessary.

I’ve often wonder how some parents would allow their young kids to roam the streets on their own. I’ve often wonder .. what these kids are gonna grow up to be. I’ve also often wonder if putting chloe in this school is the right decision but having said that.. we really had no choice.. because it’s zone accordingly, there are no free directories, like in other parts of Canada.. where you can send your kids to a private school if you can afford it.

As a parent, I sometimes wonder - how does these kids survive ..?? how do these parents do it..?? Very often, i hear of parents going out for the nite.. and having a party.. with just about anyone coming to their homes. Yes, I’ll have to admit .. i’m not that popular .. neither is PB. We have very little friends.. and we like it this way. Why..?? mostly, it’s because we are very busy.. and secondly, the investing on the time can be very stressful at times.

As parents, we want our kids to be in the “good crowd” .. but is there a “good” crowd..?? Even the doctor’s kids can bully another doctor’s kid in high school - according to reliable sources. So how do one protect your kids..?? you can’t be with them 24hrs a day.. they have to go to school right..?? Something came to our attention last week about Chloe and one of her school mate - lets just said.. kids can be evil too. As parents, creating awareness is very important. As parents, it’s utmost important to listen to your kids and spend time daily to chat with him or her. It is very important to be there for him or her.. when they need you.

I’m glad that i’m spending more time with Chloe these days.. else i may not have found out what happened of late at school. Of course, as a parent, i do not wish this upon anyone.. therefore, I’m telling all parents out there.. that there are some kids who comes from “different” type of family, therefore, it’s important for you to be vigilant, it’s important that as parents.. we have to open our eyes and ears.. and gently bring across awareness. Working and gaming is important.. but nothing is more important then your kids, should anything happened to your kids.. and you could have prevented it.. by spending less time at work.. and gaming, you would lived to regret it. So dads .. who are into gaming.. spend more time with your kids.. and less them on the computer or console systems.. and moms.. less facebook.. and more time with your kids too. Don’t lived to regret it.. because they are only this age once.

Owning a business.. and having a kid.. doesn’t really make much room for indulging on yourself. I, for one.. cannot bear to buy imitation stuff.. nor inferior quality stuff - don’t get me wrong, not that .. i’m so “atas” .. it’s just me.. if it’s not quality stuff.. i rather.. not get it. But when i saw this recently at Mark’s Warehouse, I just knew i had to get it.. because it was made of real leather .. and so soft. A lot more pricier than most of my gloves.. but i bought it anyways.

So why am i indulging now..?? For the last few weeks, I had been kept busy taking care of Chloe and working out a routine.. so that I can be at the store.. and come home with her .. when she is done school. Now that we are pretty comfy with our new routine, i can now relax a little and pamper myself too. With our new routine.. I don’t have to spend so much time online .. so it works out for Chloe, since she needs more help with her school work now. So from now on.. i can indulge myself .. a little every month .. muahahahha!!! i’m eyeing on something from Etsy .. for Christmas.. but i can’t decide yet.. because whenever i am buying something for myself.. i need to keep checking that it’s the one i really one .. before buying them - what about you ..??

Remembrance Day is tomorrow.. did you all noticed a poppy on my header..?? check it out.. and let me know.. if you see it. Happy Remembrance Day .. everyone..! Lest we forget..! be grateful.. ppl..!

Like any good parents, we noticed things as soon as it happens - just like when Chloe comes back from school with not one .. not two.. but several bruises every week. It almost seems like she gets new one.. even before she had time to fully recover from the last few bruises. Of course, many parents are gonna say.. kids do that… and i most certainly agree with you 100% but that does not mean.. that you let it go.. or ignore it. I never take things like that lightly .. because as a mom. .you have to stay on top of things all the time.

A check with Chloe.. she exclaimed she didn’t know when or where she bruised herself.. but she knew they were from school - i had no doubt about it. So i am taking a picture of the bruises.. and bringing them to the school.. to show her principal or teachers .. that way maybe, they will look out for Chloe more. What would you do..?? if you were I…?? donch forget i’m the helicopter mom… hahahhaa!!

As you all know.. i’m spending a lot more time with Chloe these days, well, truth be told even when we had a babysitter, she was pretty much with us in the store.. with her babysitter.. except for the few hours.. they leave for home twice a week. Or when we had errands to run - so we do encourage Chloe to tell us anything and everything.

So the other day, she came home from school.. and outta no where told us that one of the teacher’s aid told her that .. she doesn’t need to tell her mama everything.. and to go to them.. if she had any problems.. made me frown a little. Oh .. don’t get me wrong.. i’m sure.. the teacher’s aid meant well.. but you know .. Chloe is only a kid.. and they really have to explain .. what exactly, she doesn’t need to tell us.. and in what situation.

Kids at that age is very impressionable.. and i’m afraid.. that Chloe or some other kids.. who might have been told the same.. might end up not telling anyone about anything.. should they get bullied outta school.. or not within the school compound. Or worst.. if they were abused at school by a teacher.. are they not supposed to tell anyone..?? or tell on the teachers who abused them..?? like i said.. i don’t think they meant anything bad - but definition of such must be very, very clearly spell out for the kids.. because if my kid was abused in school - i would definitely want to know. I’m trying not to make a mountain outta a molehill, so i told Chloe and drilled it in her.. that i am her mama .. and i need to know everything.. because there is nothing wrong in telling her mama what happened in school or anywheres. There are a lot of bad ppl out there.. as long as they are not family .. you trust no one.

I look at my Chloe everyday .. and hope that I’m doing the right thing with her .. and by her. What do i mean..?? when i see some of the kids around us .. i sometimes wonder what went wrong..?? One day, you see this sweet lil’ kid walk into your store.. and years later.. this kid comes in and sell you some stuff you are quite sure was stolen. His parent is a good woman.. hardworking .. and good. I don’t really know them well, but I know she had been a real trooper.. and gave him everything he needs. So what went wrong..??

Everybody makes mistakes.. and as a parent.. you can also expect your child NOT to be perfect.. but one can only hope not to raise a child to make STUPID mistakes. My heart becomes extremely heavy .. each time i come across a kid .. who smokes.. do weed.. or steal from their parents.. and try and sell them at our store. Worst are those parents who calls you up . . years later.. about their kid who stole from your store.. with no apology and demand that you take her kid’s picture off your website .. because he was caught on video stealing from you.

Chloe asked me the other day.. “mama, it’s not easy raising a kid eh?” i was shocked.. ! where did that come from..?? but yes.. i told her raising a kid is not difficult .. but raising a kid with good morals, honest, integrity .. and not make STUPID mistakes.. that’s the hard part. I watched my daughter everyday.. and enjoy all her funny faces.. quotes.. and many awesome moments.. and i tell myself.. “please God.. help me raise my kid right! help me raise a kid.. who doesn’t lie like there was no tomorrow. help me raise a kid who doesn’t get knock up at 16 or even 18. help me raise a kid .. who takes pride in every action she takes and most importantly help me become a friend to my kid and help me to listen .. when my kid has something to say .. every time and anytime.” Do you know what your kids are up to..?? Are you spending enough time with your kid.. so that he or she doesn’t act up and do things.. that you, yourself cannot believe it .. when seen with your own eyes. I don’t hope this day to come for anyone.. so i caution myself everyday and hope that i have the wisdom when the time comes, i’m gonna have to take some lessons from Aunt Sandra and Chloe’s kai mah eh..?

I’m just done watching Born Rich Episode 12 and boy..!! it seems the tvb series.. darn slow hor..!! when are they gonna get into the real story..?? anyhow.. i’m dying to see Ep 13 tomorrow.. and you know i’ll find the episode faster than anyone.. coz’ addicted mah.. hahhaha!! leave me a comment.. if you are looking for it too.. we share, share info lah.. sssshhhh.. donch tell anyone ok..

Halloween 2009 was certainly different.. and *slap forehead* .. why i didn’t think of doing Halloween with my daughter.. i don’t even understand it. Every year since Chloe had been doing Halloween, it was her daddy who would drive them around.. and her babysitter would bring her trick a’ treating. But you see .. when we brought her for her rounds this year.. i wouldn’t wanna missed it ever again. The glee.. the smile.. and the joy in her face was priceless. Making money is important.. but spending special moments like these are more important.. because she isn’t gonna be 5.5 for very long.. it only comes once. So even though we were trying to buy a walk in bath by making a few extra bucks online - this is a lot more important.

She now runs up the door .. while PB and I stand back .. and watch her go .. “trick a treat!! ” and then she would say.. ” thank you !” “Happy Halloween!” Too cute to watch.. and so proud of her.

Another door and another house - i don’t think she was really interested in the candies.. i think she had so much fun .. just knocking on doors.. and saying .. “trick a treat!” .. hahahha!!

We went by to Uncle Jerry’s .. and then to Tubby’s .. and Dominic’s but he wasn’t home.. so we went across to Sarah’s .. and had fun there for a bit.

Some of the houses were decorated really good.. and the people were friendly .. and welcome the kids with open arms. You can see that not all that went trick a treating.. were kids.. some were adults as well.

House with huge eyeballs were the one that was the best dressed. And the nice lady - the owner of the house was very nice and welcoming.

Oh.. and we had to go out and buy another halloween costume for her.. because the one grammie sent back .. still smelled of smoke.. the day before Halloween. Poor Chloe.. was devastated and inconsolable till we went out to buy her a new costume.

And what did PB do.. during Halloween..?? stealing someone’s kid.. muahahhahah!!! Pinky is her nickname and she is tubby’s kid.

Looking for Beyond The Realm Of Conscience Ep 11? if you are watching the show .. and following it.. i know where to get it.. let me know.. or email me… i’ll redirect you.

Those wanting to watch Born Rich Ep 11, just email me.. or leave me a comment ok. I got lobang.. kekekkee!! yes.. yes..! very exciting..and kan cheong now.. is it not..?? i also like it very much.. ! so if you can’t find it yourself.. let me know.. i’ll let you know where i found it.

3 weeks before Halloween, we went out to get the Halloween goodies for Chloe’s class, we knew that we will be busy this year, so we didn’t procrastinate. And true enough .. after getting the goodies for the big event this year.. we were too busy at the store.. to really go out to hunt for goodies. Plus, i wanted to get the good stuff.. and the good bags.

So the nite before the Halloween party at school, Chloe wanted to help do up the bags for her friends. And she was pretty earnest about it too. She followed all the instructions as to how much to put into each bag.. and was very zealous about tying them up too. And in every loot bag, we had planned to put some holiday cards as well. Unfortunately, it was getting too late to personalize the cards, so we did it for her instead.

I am very blessed because PB helps with stuff like that.. and daddy and daughter go on their mission on their own. I didn’t have to do anything.

Look at how much candies we bought .. for the kids at school. We also bought a cake for the class.. and had i known that the other parents weren’t too big on Halloween.. i would have done a lot more.

There were bags of chips too.. for every treat bags. And some leftovers.. for giving away.. at home or at the store.

16 bags in all.. and one for Dominic of course… and Sarah.. and Jasmine and Jessica .. and of course one for her babysitter - bless the brat’s kind heart. I asked her if she wants her babysitter to bring her trick a’ treating … but she said no, she wants mummy and daddy this year. So there… we had no choice.. but to make other arrangement.

I’ve been spending a lot of time with Chloe of late and it’s really quite fun to see her doing stuff that are not only creative.. but each day, i see changes in her .. and it seems that everyday, she comes home learning something new. She told us about the new stone sink that they had in school.. and also many new steps she learned in her dancing school. But most importantly.. i am able to drop everything .. and be with her .. after school.. and during the weekends.

Ppl said we are very blessed to be able to bring our kid to work… and before i used to lament.. that my online work.. takes up some of my time.. therefore, i needed help. But truth be told, the kid loves spending time with us. I remember the many nites when she had to go home with her babysitter.. and we had to bribe her sometimes. Or she would say.. “mummy .. i’m gonna miss you!”. We are of course, thankful for the babysitter’s help.. but i guess .. Chloe is getting a lot older now.. and i need to help her with her reading too.. every nite. Not just reading to her.. but teach her how to read. Nowadays.. she recite her numbers.. from 1 - 100 with no problem.. and read 3 books on her own - as of today. I have the luxury to be with my daughter.. everyday.. and i have to be thankful. Thankful for help when i needed.. thankful.. to PB for being so hands on. Thankful that PB is willing to share 50/50 of all my responsibility.

PS: One of the main reason i feel a need to be with Chloe is because there were too many things going on around us in this town. And like any responsible parent.. you and I know.. that we have put your child’s interest on first priority, to protect our kid, nurture them ourselves and make sure that she grows up the right way, so what better but to teach her yourself right? As a mother, you cannot fault me for wanting to spend more time with my kid.. and less time online right? I also noticed that i’m able to write once again - meaningful and thoughtful scripts about my life.. and those of chloe’s. A fair trade..?? very.

Yes..! she does..! today .. we were home late .. because of the Halloween Parade.. so we came home.. i gave her some leftover oranges.. from her lunch even though she said she wanted grapes. So she finished her oranges.. and told me.. “I have been waiting for my grapes you know? ” In which i replied.. “do you still want grapes..?? since you already have some oranges?” In which she replied .. ” yes…! i’ve been waiting patiently you know..?? i’m practicing patience you know..?” muahahah! With a kid like that.. who needs any best wrinkle cream anymore right..?

The other day .. we went to her old school’s playground.. and she made me go from one playground to another. You see there are 3 playgrounds there… and having walked from the store.. and running up the hill with her - i was so outta shape. In which she said.. “there’s a bench there, mommy. .. i promised you can sit and rest there” .. muahhahaha!!

So she had been practicing chinese language.. and the other day.. her daddy was being bad.. according to her.. and she said to him.. ” Mo tak Kwai eh leh.. !!” muahahahah!!! She is too funny right..?

I’m pleased to let everyone know that Chloe is pretty much settle in her new school. Come Nov 4th - Chloe would have been in school for 2 months now. Besides the fever she had in the beginning of the school term, she is pretty much doing good with regards to her health *touch wood*. But this year .. we were also pretty smart unlike last year, where we hurried her to go back to school. This year, when she got ill, we kept her home longer and made sure she was completely well - for there was no hurry as she is up to expectation in her school work.

This year, we also see a change in her behavior towards going to school, she is a lot more confident and didn’t want to miss school. This year .. we also saw a change in pattern with regards to her sleeping habits - she now goes to her bed.. and fall asleep in her bedroom instead of the tv room. Sure, we still watch a short movie .. and read.. but after reading and the short movie, she goes to her bed.. and sleep .. like any kid her age.

Everyday, she comes home and tells us all about school.. and tells us about her friends. So yes, mummies out there.. if you can keep your kid outta school for another year.. please do.. because it sure made a lot of difference .. Chloe is so much more happier this year.

Chloe’s grandparents used to say that the apple donch fall far from the tree and i’m sometimes taken aback when Chloe shows so much understanding and compassion towards certain things. And I take no credit for that.. because I don’t have much compassion nor understanding.. hahhaha!!! Of course, the kid can be really naughty at times.. but when she is with us.. she can be whiny but never evil nor do we encourage that she does stuff like spitting or hitting. We make a big deal outta it .. when she does hit her babysitter.. or pretend to wanna hit her (by not letting the babysitter come).

We also encouraged that she tells the truth.. and no fibbing - my mother used to say, that you have to teach them young.. that way .. they will know from right and wrong. Plus, I’ve always believed that reprimanding is not the way to go.. but listen .. and explaining to them .. the right from wrong is the only way to go. There are also battles that are worth picking and some that, we as parents have to learn to skip. But first, as parents.. we have to learn to be honest and even though you think they won’t understand it - you will be surprised.. what they can actually comprehend.

Take for example, a week ago, someone came into our store.. and asked my Chloe .. how she was feeling..?? she replied.. “what did you say..?” and the customer repeated himself.. and Chloe looked at him strange and replied that … she was fine. And the customer said.. “oh i thought you were sick..? and you got someone sick as well.” In which - my chloe was devastated … and said.. “nooooo..! i was never sick..” and looked very sad after which. So as a helicopter mom.. i quickly tried to protect her.. and said.. ” oh.. he was only joking!” .. in which she replied.. “that wasn’t being very nice, mama! how could i have gotten someone sick when I haven’t been sick at all” *slap forehead*. And then she said.. “is he fibbing me?”

It’s easy for an adult to forget and ignore stuff like that.. but for a kid.. it means a lot to her. If i were to teach my daughter.. thoughtfulness and truthfulness, do i have to address every lie that comes my way?? or when i choose to ignore a lie.. or something bad, am i teaching my daughter.. it is alright.. to move along and it’s just not worth our time..?? Telling a white lie is fine.. but when you use my daughter’s name.. and tell a lie.. that’s not alright. Honesty begins with us as parents - it begins with the people she is around with most times, good habits starts from us - so if your kid is lying to you .. i’m sure you don’t want that right? You also don’t want them to be anywheres near ppl who lies and are evil right..?? so as parents.. i have to make sure.. that I am not lying nor being evil. What about you ..?? what is your thoughts about bringing up your kid to be a thoughtful and useful person..?? I think .. if Chloe starts lying or telling stories to me.. that would be the saddest thing in my life, that would only mean that i haven’t given her enough attention for her to lie and want the attention. What do you think..??

So i’ve slowed down on my writing recently - due to unforeseen circumstances - but that’s alright coz’ i can do more stuff with Chloe and look for pet beds for my best g/f from home. You see buying it back home is pretty ex and they probably don’t have the same stuff.. so i am buying them for her here.. and then bringing it home with me.. next year.. when i go home for a visit. Anyhow, i also have more time to do more catch up on my reading .. and plan for more activities for Chloe, so the unforeseen event turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I’ve always believed in making the best outta any situation .. and staying positive at all cost is my motto, afterall, Chloe is my only daughter.. and i need to do what is best for her.. and the rest are secondary right..?

So i read that the Vitamin D can do a lifetime of health benefits for our kids..?? Chloe is already taking a vitamin E supplement because she doesn’t take a lot of vegies. So what does Vitamin D do..?? and how much do they need to build strong bones and help prevent serious health problems in the future..?? It looks like the vitamin D can deliver a wide range of benefits. It is said that vitamin D plays a role in the prevention of seious chronic illnesses .. such as type 1 and type 2 diabetes.. and multiple scleriosis, cancer, heart disease and mental health problems like depression .. and schizophrenia. And since i have diabetes.. and rumor has it.. that it will run in the family.. i have no choice.. but to keep abreast on stuff like that right..?? So yes..! i’m heading out to the pharmacy .. and getting some for Chloe. But i’m gonna check with the pharmacist and see how much a kid can take.. becuase i read that one shouldn’t take more than 1,000IU of it a day - plus don’t forget to tell the pharmacist what you kid’s diet is already.. this will help determine how much your kid is able to take. Overdosing your kid with vitamin D is not advisable .. because it can make your kid feel nausea and long period of overdosing can lead to kidney stones and damage to the heart, lungs and blood vessels.

It’s in-service tomorrow.. but like any parents would know.. in service usually starts the day before - haha! for those who are not aware of what in service is .. don’t worry, i didn’t know till i came to Canada. It means the school teachers either have a meeting or needs to go for some upgrade - so there is no school tomorrow. For some kids, its great.. but for some parents they need to make arrangement for their kids to be looked after while they are at work.

For Chloe .. it is not a problem at all. because we have her at work with us all the time. Now that she is older, she is a lot more easier to look after and she can do stuff on her own. As she likes painting and drawing a lot .. you can see what she is up to already.. even before her off day from school.

We also explained to Chloe, she is a very blessed kid .. because she can follow mama and daddy to work and she understands it .. because just the other day, she told us that her friends don’t get to go to work with their mama or daddy. When she was younger, we were fortunate to have a babysitter who will come play with her at the store and go home with her when the need arises. But now that she is older and plus i don’t have so much online work, she is pretty much a self sufficient kid. I’m sure all mummies around the world would agree with me.. that spending time with their kids is the best gift one can give their kids right..?? and yes… i’m enjoying my special dates with my daughter. Tomorrow, we are heading out to watch Astro Boy in the cinema and a playdate as well.

So the flu shots are supposedly to be here soon .. and with the HN1N thing going around, we too wonder if we should take the needle, for those in the US, i think they are covered by short term health insurance NC. But of course, there are so many speculation and theory .. and so much to read online, you’ve gotta wonder right ..?? to take or not to take. With the babysitter having mono and stuff going around, it’s a good thing - the brat didn’t catch mono from her. Luckily, I had also curb and forbid Chloe to kiss the babysitter for the longest time.. actually since she started school. But she knows better not to kiss anyone on the lips.. yes - she sometimes does try with the babysitter.. moreso, to defy us.. and to irritate her. So we thank our lucky star - that she didn’t catch mono from the babysitter - when we heard 3 weeks ago, she caught it.

Which brings us back to - should we take the flu needle or the HN1N needle..?? so a call to the public nurse told us that she didn’t have as much info as she wants to yet - since the vaccine has not arrived. She feels that even if we did get HN1N .. she didn’t think that it would render life - threatening to be admitted to the hospital. But since PB has asthma, he will be eligible for it.. and so will the entire family. She wants us to check back in a week about the vaccine. As for the babysitter having mono, we don’t know where she might have caught it .. and even though she is out of the contagious stage, a check with our family doctor - he had said that she was gonna be quite tired for now, therefore, we had told the babysitter not to come in .. till later, in order not to stress her out or to strain her immune system - because chloe can be quite handful too at times. For those who have taken the flu shots or the HN1N vaccine, please let me know how it went.